As I spent the last few weeks preparing for a photo shoot and the launch of RaJean Beauty’s apps, I thought a bit to myself. At what point does one accept and assert herself as “professional”, “CEO”, an actual Business owner? When is it no longer weird to say (out loud) that I own my own business? I mean its super early in the game but technically thats who and what I am now! So why is that so difficult to embrace?
I come from a fairly traditional background. Mostly a straight A student, all of the extracurricular activities, singing in the church choir and serving on the youth usher board. So being a creative was great for the sake of conversation.. But in practice, not practical.. Almost frowned upon. I was supposed to finish school, graduate from college, go on to be a professional something or other, get married and start a family with a great God-fearing man!
Fast forward, I’ve arrived at 30. No degree. No husband. No children. Plenty of ideas and started projects but nothing completed. As I dodged the slew of side eyes and to do lists, I was introduced to the possibilities that come with accepting your greatness outside of the normal confines of society by someone extremely close to me. And unloading all of the subconscious luggage I’d accumulated was LITERALLY physically painful! I wanted so badly to finish something. ANYTHING! There was no way I should be working so hard for someone else and never investing that same time or energy into myself and my skills!
So I decided just a few months before my 30th birthday that I would have 2-3 additional streams of income before I turned 31. Really evaluating all my talents, and thinking of creative ways to make the most of them was the first step. Being disciplined and consistent enough to see these new goals through though was the challenge that was going to make or break this phase of my life! To me it felt like legit now or never. This was it and I was sick of myself and all my fears and excuses. I took inventory of everything around me and made the decision to do and be better. Period. The short of it all here is that once my mind was made up…. Once I decided this was the pivotal time I couldn’t brush past or ignore, the Universe opened right up for me. And everything I said I wanted to do began to manifest. I am still living in awe of this each and everyday as I’m just in the infant stages of this thing my life seems to be doing right now…
I said all of that to say, I have no idea what I’m doing. I just want to do what God has for me to do. I want my life to be fulfilling. I could tell you all about the fact that Shea Butter has anti-inflammatory properties, is a natural sunscreen, heals scars, dark spots and blemishes.. (And believe me we’ll get to all of that I promise!) But I need you to know first and foremost that RaJean Beauty is about more than skincare. It is my unfinished story. Proof that there is no such thing as a timeline. I go out with my butters every weekend, selling them at salons and barbershops. Watching this thing I created touch lives and make smiles! And as I stood looking at the staging I’d just done for my first shoot, looking at the ladies getting their faces beat to the heavens, my heart felt so full! My eyes welled up because my life is unfolding in a glorious way and it scares me like I don’t know what! But those ideas in my head are becoming tangible. And I’m praying someone, anyone else who has ever been guilted about being a dreamer finds some resolve in that and goes for “it”!! Whatever “it” may be!!!